I was thinking about how I have this yearbook signing party to attend to on Monday. Hmm that’s gonna be interesting. I think this year I’m actually gonna write about the brutal truth. Not some sappy love letter. The truth is better right? Well for some it is

The fact that I let Riley drive my car home from L.A last night is really telling of how generous I am (:

Just dozed off for a quick little second and then woke up in sheer panic because I thought I was being strangled by my phone charger, turns out it was just my wicked imagination. Alright goodnight

“he is mad about being small when you were big, but no, that’s not it, he is mad about being helpless when you were powerful, but no, not that either, he is mad about being contingent when you were necessary, not quite it, he is insane because when he loved you, you didn’t notice.”

molls:

Thursday.

The funniest person EVER.

I know you will never read this because no one knows I even have a tumblr but I just want to get a few things off my chest because I know I have no other way of getting this information to you since you would never give me the time of day. First I want to say what a breath of fresh air it was meeting you. I knew nothing about you but we hung out a lot. Everyday I think. Which was more than I did with best friends and we were just getting started! However getting to know you in the year and a half that we were friends was not what I had expected. It’s hard to come by best friends or even great friends but I don’t think I deserve the treatment you give me now. I feel as though I’ve done nothing wrong to you and I don’t think you realize that. Everyone else in your life is too scared to tell you the truth so I’m going to. You have a lot of problems. And I’m not sure where they come from but they are definitely apparent to me. You have a rough time trusting people and letting people get to know you. I’m not sure why that is. Everyone else around you opens up and lets you inside their life but you don’t return the favor. You are too guarded and maybe it’s because you’ve gotten hurt in the past but it’s time to forget that and start over. When you did let me inside your life I cherished it because I knew it was rare and not many people knew these things about you. But when I let you inside my private life you seemed to soak up every secret and then run your mouth. It did hurt to hear that all the rumors that were going around were caused by you, someone I had trusted. You have a common pattern with most people you become close with. You start off not even knowing them but hangin out with them and talking a lot and telling them other people’s secrets to think they can trust you but then after you become obsessed with them you just drop them. I’m not sure if you have commitment issues or what but that’s not the way to go about things. We had an awesome summer together and we saw each other literally every day but something went wrong in your head and I’m not sure what it was. I thought going into senior year was going to be so much fun but we didn’t make it past mid August. I just want you to know that I did stay loyal to you when other friends turned their backs on you. I know you are a private person and even though you told me you didn’t like this particular guy I still didn’t hook up with him. I’ll never forget that night. We were all sober and everyone in the car walked off to the park and it was just me and him sitting in the backseat together for what I thought was just talking but he instead wanted to hook up apparently. He kept begging and begging to just kiss him once just so that he can say he kissed me and even though I knew it would mean nothing to me, it would for you. I knew you still liked him alot even after you told me you didn’t so I refrained even when he started coming on to me and I had no idea what to do. You probably will never know this but I did it for you. I got burned by a friend and I know how bad it hurts and I didn’t want to do it to you even if we weren’t best friends. I know I’ve been dropped but you gave me no reason as to why. You just stopped talking to me one day. I heard it was because I annoyed you by not giving you my utmost attention but that’s just a simple one day argument, not a lifetime of enemies. I do think you owe me an apology but I have no expectations and I know I will never get one from you but I just want you to realize that I was a true friend to you and even when you spread rumors about me around the school I still forgave you. I feel as though I’ve done nothing wrong to you, you just wanted an excuse to get rid of me because we were getting closer. Well guess what? We all need friends. Everyday. It doesn’t matter who your friends with now or who your dating, it never hurts to have more friends. I’m sorry for whatever I did to you to make you drop me but you should learn how to forgive people. I don’t plan on being good friends with you if you ever read this, I just want this to be helpful towards you in the future when your making friends in a new environment. I wish you the best of luck in life.

hokay so i was thinking about this marvelous idea to just find out who this person really is, you know? and now i have a basic understanding and i think that if i was her age i would totallyyy be her friend because shes super awesome. basically i want to live her life. in a nutshell.

so like i was on facebook this morning and i noticed that there was some drama. normally you miss out on the drama because people delete it but this time i got to actually witness it!! and it was some good shit. apparently theres this slut that no one knew was a slut (with the exception of a few people) but im talking the general public doesnt know about her dirty deeds. i even thought the slut wasnt a slut and everything i heard was a lie or just rumors. i couldnt handle the information. but now after a year or so i see that yes she is a true slut. im not sure what went into her head to become this type of person but it really angers me because she affects a lot of people by doing this. im not sure why she has good friends, she certainly doesnt deserve them. or maybe they just dont know about who she really is? i havent yet figured that out. but i mean honestly she is definitley one of the biggest sluts i have ever been encountered with. she has a lot of guts doing what she does and i dont think she understands yet, i find her to be stupid. if your gonna be a slut you dont go for guys that are all friends. you seperate them all up. one guy from this school, one guy from that school and so on. but nope she just went for all the guys that go to her own school. dumbassbitch. im glad the person that got affected by her spoke up and made it public that yes, AMY BUI IS A SLUT. and christopher that was the dumbest thing you couldve done. shiela is way better looking and amy has gotten with your friends already, what makes sloppy thirds okay? thats the grossest thing to me. i hope you have a shitty life.

2nd post and it feels fucking awesome.

so like i feel  like the most important things on this earth are definitely audi’s but it really makes me mad when people talk negatively about them. like shit, they didnt do anything to you but make you look fuckin awesome. they are seriously the best cars ever made, hands down. so dont disrespect audi ever. dont smoke in an audi either. rude. and i would like to thank john bell for making me feel passionate towards audis and for giving me motivation to have a career that i actually love. thanks john.

So i would like to dedicate my very first tumblr post to the sloth, for making my life a living hell and for being the reason i hate being home.

Today was probably the best verbal fight we’ve had yet. it actually started the other night when she took her 1993 toyota 4runner to toyota to find out what the problem is with it. she found out it was going to cost a lottt of money to fix it, and here is where the fun comes in. last night she called my grandma julie, which is strange in itself since she normally calls my other grandma to complain about how much she hates our family and all of her drama and shit, but she called grandma j to tell her about how it is unfair that my dad got her an unreliable car and how i get to drive an audi. a month ago the sloth said that her 1993 toyota 4runner was worth DOUBLE the price of my 2004 audi a4. i dont care who you are or if your not even a car person, but any person in this world could tell you that the sloth is obviously pyscho and has mental issues,  you dont have to know a thing about cars to know that the sloth is wrong. that however is a different battle. the fact that she was crying to my grandma about how i get to dirve an audi is quite funny to me, sloth your car is definitely worth double than the audi so why do you care that i get to drive an audi? your car is obviously wayyyyy bettter. stop complaining. even though my grandma said that it was unfair i would like her to know that there is 2 sides to the sloths story. the sloth is under the impression that her car is worth more than mine, i dont know why she is just now complaining. it really aggravated me that she brought in my extended family to deal with an issue that is within my immediate family.